People say happiness is not a destination, but they have never been where we are now.
People say it'll get even better, but I honestly don't really know how.
Cuz these people don't feel the way you hold me when we're lying in the dark.
They can't possibly see the mark you have placed upon my heart.
Even the darkness of your empty spot in my king-sized bed,
Is out-shown by the light of hope for what's ahead.
So, baby, hurry back to Iowa where our story will play out,
Baby, I'll meet you back in Iowa where my lips await the touch of your mouth.
We'll dance along the river, laughing back at that ole clock tower.
Cuz we have forever, baby, it don't matter what's the hour.
Others roll their eyes as they watch us across the room,
They'll tag along our side just to feel the high from our fumes.
But the happiness inside me can't be explained or even known,
It's like seeing a thousand windmills, but never feeling the air they've blown.
So, baby hurry back to Iowa where our story will play out,
Baby, I'll meet you back in Iowa where my lips await the touch of your mouth.
We'll dance along the river, laughing back at that ole clock tower.
Cuz we have forever, baby, it don't matter what's the hour.
We'll make it past the rocky edges, we'll never stop, we'll never yield.
With time, we'll grow even taller than those golden stalks down in the field.
Our love will span across the seasons, winter through the fall,
Soon I'll hear your voice whisper my name and I won't even have to call.
Cuz, baby, you're moving here to Iowa where our story will play out,
Baby, you're moving here to Iowa where every day my lips will kiss your mouth.
We'll dance along the river, laughing back at that ole clock tower,
Because our forever, baby, starts at this very hour.
People say happiness is not a destination, but I guess they've never been to Iowa.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
2011: The Year of the Road Warrior (Final Chapter)
October was deemed the new season for weddings,
Which made it easy to wear my dresses with leggings.
The first of three was the most entertaining of my life,
I'm really shocked someone didn't end up pulling a knife.
The first fist fight broke out at 6:11 p.m.
7 cop cars arrived and nobody could flee 'em.
It all worked out and most guests drank away the drama,
Chelcy and Reg owning the dance floor, followed closely by Kate and Frahm-a.
All that dancing must have made them quite a bit tired,
Fore if Reg and Chee's job was to stay awake, they'd surely be fired.
I spent the next weekend in Dubuque attending the last rugby game of the year,
Afterwards the social led to way too many beers.
Showing up on Thursday in the afternoon around fourish,
Was my cousin, Marr-Dawg, ready to celebrate the great Morris.
I was so happy to have my little cousin around that she couldn't get away from my hugs,
We were definitely the only Cards fans represented at BDUBs.
The next day we attended her first hockey game and felt a little out of place,
Til we realized all we had to do was yell "Kill Him" in someone's face.
What was supposed to be a friendly game of flip cup at Lindsay's that night,
Turned into a war that only the late Morris could ever fight.
We flipped with all we had including Morris' will on our side,
Those Deutmeyer's went down like they were on a twisty slide.
Saturday was time to celebrate the marriage of Don and Mandy,
Between the wedding and reception, Marlana came up with a plan that was so grandy.
Morris should come along for the ride in a van with some strangers,
We knew with him on our side, we'd be safe from any dangers.
Beverages and dancing mixed with a break for a photobooth,
Marr singing karaoke at the bars was worse than an achy tooth.
But we had some fun and partied even later with Stefano and Benda,
Clint was his rowdy self, but once on the couch began to surrenda.
It was one of those weekends I'll hold close for the rest of my days,
It's amazing how much I can love my little lady in so many big ways.
Don't think that it was over though, there was one more big event I had to see,
Rob drove me to see my Cardinals put an end to Milwaukee.
It was a weird and incredible game, and a bit of a road trip,
But nothing can replace seeing the redbirds clinching to go to the ship.
The next week showed that maybe I wasn't as lucky as I thought,
sprained my ankle so bad, appears walking I was never really taught.
I headed home on crutches but with high hopes for what was to come,
A full weekend of parties and friends all back where I came from.
Surprises were had for Jess and Luke at Twin Oaks,
Everyone came out to celebrate their engagement, including both their sets of folks.
With Brooke as my date and Zach as our ride,
we showed up to the Schnable reception ready for the electric slide.
Aubrey stopped by just in time for some cloudy pics,
My mom joined in after promising her treats and tricks.
It was by far the funnest reception, really, of them all,
Counting down the Cardinals score, even weddings love baseball.
It would be five days later when I was at my apartment pacing the floor,
In the ninth inning of Game Six, I never dreamed we'd play two more.
I witnessed the greatest World Series game that ever happened on a field,
The neighbors had to think I was crazy from my yelling and how I squealed.
The next night I had some guests over to watch the last game of the series,
I knew the Cards had it won, even after listening to all of Rob's Cubs theories.
My old roommie showed up-- Jenna finally made a trip to my town,
The next day we would go hiking and then, in costume, march around.
As a french maid and lion, we skipped from place to place,
We got a little disturbed when we realized our scarecrow's pants had some missing space.
October was another really great time to be alive,
But I was ready for hanging with my family and the holidays to arrive.
For the first time in two years, I headed back to my college town of Cape,
Alli came up from Memphis, someone really should have got us on tape.
Saw so many familiar faces and played all over the ole stomping ground,
The next day we weren't really sure in what house we could be found.
Heads down at work until Thanksgiving break,
Not only did I win a bonus and award, but also a free meal with steak.
December proved to be another party session to the extreme,
Went on a party bus and bar crawl with the rugby team.
Garden club had a Christmas party with a theme of triple X,
I found it amusing as I didn't seem to have any luck with the opposite sex.
One last trip home to ride out the end of the year like a champ,
The first three days were spent at home at the Mapavi Camp.
I loved hanging out with just my mom and dad watching Law and Order,
I couldn't have imagined I'd want to cut my time with them to be any shorter.
But that was the case after what I consider the Miracle of the season,
I was drawn to a late night Christmas party for what appears to be a reason.
I saw some old friends that are still as great as they ever were,
But I locked eyes with the one that got away and the rest is just a blur.
Then came 8 days in Heaven or really what a dream feels like,
I can't believe all I ever wanted can now be mine, and that's Spike.
I've been saying for months that 2011 was my best,
I had no idea my heart would start to feel it was burstin' out my chest.
Now when I look to the future, I'll close my eyes and see,
I've got everything I need-- I'm the definition of happy.
Which made it easy to wear my dresses with leggings.
The first of three was the most entertaining of my life,
I'm really shocked someone didn't end up pulling a knife.
The first fist fight broke out at 6:11 p.m.
7 cop cars arrived and nobody could flee 'em.
It all worked out and most guests drank away the drama,
Chelcy and Reg owning the dance floor, followed closely by Kate and Frahm-a.
All that dancing must have made them quite a bit tired,
Fore if Reg and Chee's job was to stay awake, they'd surely be fired.
I spent the next weekend in Dubuque attending the last rugby game of the year,
Afterwards the social led to way too many beers.
Showing up on Thursday in the afternoon around fourish,
Was my cousin, Marr-Dawg, ready to celebrate the great Morris.
I was so happy to have my little cousin around that she couldn't get away from my hugs,
We were definitely the only Cards fans represented at BDUBs.
The next day we attended her first hockey game and felt a little out of place,
Til we realized all we had to do was yell "Kill Him" in someone's face.
What was supposed to be a friendly game of flip cup at Lindsay's that night,
Turned into a war that only the late Morris could ever fight.
We flipped with all we had including Morris' will on our side,
Those Deutmeyer's went down like they were on a twisty slide.
Saturday was time to celebrate the marriage of Don and Mandy,
Between the wedding and reception, Marlana came up with a plan that was so grandy.
Morris should come along for the ride in a van with some strangers,
We knew with him on our side, we'd be safe from any dangers.
Beverages and dancing mixed with a break for a photobooth,
Marr singing karaoke at the bars was worse than an achy tooth.
But we had some fun and partied even later with Stefano and Benda,
Clint was his rowdy self, but once on the couch began to surrenda.
It was one of those weekends I'll hold close for the rest of my days,
It's amazing how much I can love my little lady in so many big ways.
Don't think that it was over though, there was one more big event I had to see,
Rob drove me to see my Cardinals put an end to Milwaukee.
It was a weird and incredible game, and a bit of a road trip,
But nothing can replace seeing the redbirds clinching to go to the ship.
The next week showed that maybe I wasn't as lucky as I thought,
sprained my ankle so bad, appears walking I was never really taught.
I headed home on crutches but with high hopes for what was to come,
A full weekend of parties and friends all back where I came from.
Surprises were had for Jess and Luke at Twin Oaks,
Everyone came out to celebrate their engagement, including both their sets of folks.
With Brooke as my date and Zach as our ride,
we showed up to the Schnable reception ready for the electric slide.
Aubrey stopped by just in time for some cloudy pics,
My mom joined in after promising her treats and tricks.
It was by far the funnest reception, really, of them all,
Counting down the Cardinals score, even weddings love baseball.
It would be five days later when I was at my apartment pacing the floor,
In the ninth inning of Game Six, I never dreamed we'd play two more.
I witnessed the greatest World Series game that ever happened on a field,
The neighbors had to think I was crazy from my yelling and how I squealed.
The next night I had some guests over to watch the last game of the series,
I knew the Cards had it won, even after listening to all of Rob's Cubs theories.
My old roommie showed up-- Jenna finally made a trip to my town,
The next day we would go hiking and then, in costume, march around.
As a french maid and lion, we skipped from place to place,
We got a little disturbed when we realized our scarecrow's pants had some missing space.
October was another really great time to be alive,
But I was ready for hanging with my family and the holidays to arrive.
For the first time in two years, I headed back to my college town of Cape,
Alli came up from Memphis, someone really should have got us on tape.
Saw so many familiar faces and played all over the ole stomping ground,
The next day we weren't really sure in what house we could be found.
Heads down at work until Thanksgiving break,
Not only did I win a bonus and award, but also a free meal with steak.
December proved to be another party session to the extreme,
Went on a party bus and bar crawl with the rugby team.
Garden club had a Christmas party with a theme of triple X,
I found it amusing as I didn't seem to have any luck with the opposite sex.
One last trip home to ride out the end of the year like a champ,
The first three days were spent at home at the Mapavi Camp.
I loved hanging out with just my mom and dad watching Law and Order,
I couldn't have imagined I'd want to cut my time with them to be any shorter.
But that was the case after what I consider the Miracle of the season,
I was drawn to a late night Christmas party for what appears to be a reason.
I saw some old friends that are still as great as they ever were,
But I locked eyes with the one that got away and the rest is just a blur.
Then came 8 days in Heaven or really what a dream feels like,
I can't believe all I ever wanted can now be mine, and that's Spike.
I've been saying for months that 2011 was my best,
I had no idea my heart would start to feel it was burstin' out my chest.
Now when I look to the future, I'll close my eyes and see,
I've got everything I need-- I'm the definition of happy.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
2011: The Year of the Road Warrior (Part II)
Visited Missouri again just in time for a wedding,
Jen Hartman was beautiful, and we left the dance floor sweating.
The next weeks to come involved a lot of the Mississippi River,
I never imagined a few months later I'd be in it with the shivers.
Rode my friend's jet ski and watched some others play in the water,
I feared at the end of the day I'd find a human that was slaughtered.
Enjoyed Bluegrass music at the site of Mud Lake,
It's memories like these that I can't believe I get to make.
The following weekend, I returned a moving favor,
Reggie and Chelcy's house is awesome, and family time I did savor.
Later that night, our cab driver put on a light show,
Once at T-Layne's I heard, "This ain't my first karaoke, ho."
We danced the night away, at this point, out of habit,
We had an opportunity to hang with Phil; couldn't help but grab it.
Stayed an extra night in STL after a Sunday at Hammerstone's,
Saw a lot of my new Jap friend, Parker-- could've been his flesh and bones.
Winery weekend was an event not to be missed,
Megan Mullen in rare form hitting on Phil, Em wasn't even pissed.
Jessica showed up much to my surprise,
Asked me to be a bridesmaid, happy tears came to my eyes.
Another successful weekend, but ready for what was in store,
Lollapalooza in Chicago? There's nothing I want more!
Emily with two idiots riding the train to the city,
I show up at Spitz's apartment, the place pimpin' like Diddy.
Emily and Ash cherish every moment of Black Cards and Little J,
Catching up on meaningless discussions, always so much to say.
That night we try the fishbowl, we drink it fast with no apology,
Can't forget to check in at the 17th church of scientology.
The next day we wake to find a rainy, rainy day,
With Grace and Walk the Moon on the agenda, water will not get in our way.
Meet up with the guys, Ryan is a fist-pumping fool,
I break away to see Slim Shady cuz let's face it,I'm a tool.
My Morning Jacket with another stellar performance,
Much like Mr. Double Fist-pumper and all his endurance.
Spitz decides to break the rules and jump over the fence,
Searching high and low, his absence adds to our suspense.
We meet back up at the apartment, some are still wanting to have more fun,
But we knew our night was over when Ryan started chewing a wet one.
Sleep it all off for a bit the next day,
I head back on a scenic drive to the state that ends in "a."
I get my float trip fix with my girls Lindsay and Lisa,
Tubing along their canoe is a perfect way to please-ya.
Emily brought Phil for his first taste of this town,
Princess cups filled with mimosas, how quickly they went down.
Taking off hiking around the Mines of Spain,
Ashley running from snakes until she gets a sidepain.
Saw what we call a great band at Summer's Last Blast,
By the end of the night, Phil went missing, it happened so fast.
Picked him up in the ghetto, said he hated this place,
The next day he laughed and called those words a disgrace.
Labor Day weekend was as great as you can imagine,
Wineries, Picnic and BBQ- going on in true SFC-fashion.
I attend a Booze Cruise with my Rugby Loves the next week,
We are karaoke fools singing til we can't speak.
Let's just say my September was off to a great start,
The crazy thing is, we haven't even talked about the best part!
After crossfit on a Wednesday, I took off for Harrah's late at night,
Finally get to see Nicole after six month of only skype.
We are headed to San Francisco in the wee hours of the morning,
Her and Penny are about spend four nights with my snoring.
There is so much to do and people to see,
First, I went to the IBM Office to say hi to my old team.
Later that night, we went out and had a blast,
Nicole was at a jazz bar getting hit on by foreign ass.
Shopping and eating and sleeping here or there,
Just excited to be together in the California air.
Spend Saturday in Berkely with my sweet housemates of the prior year,
Every time I see them I start to cry and start to cheer.
Sunday is the day Nicole and Penny head North,
I spend it all with Jan and Dave, who I feel I've known since my birth.
These two are the greatest friends someone could ever have,
Jan takes me to the airport, I don't even need a cab!
Even though I'm exhausted and could really use some sleep,
There is no time-- to the next big event I must leap.
Starting to party and to celebrate my 25th,
80s and 90s-style, the whole weekend I could kiss!
First to arrive were Em, Phil, Will and Brad,
Playing catch phrase may have made us all a little mad.
Aubrey showed up holding a dog statue with eyes that sag,
I immediately turned into a crazy lady with some bags.
My momma appeared around ten that night,
I am the luckiest girl to have her in my life.
We left Diane in bed while we hit the Rainbow Lounge,
No idea we'd be hearing such a beautiful sound.
Brad and Aubrey sing amazing, we really gave them no choice,
But the Grammy goes to our strokin' lady, whom we call Joyce the Voice.
Run around the next morning getting ready for the party,
Maid Rite food made us wanna barf and probably a little farty.
Get ready in the hotel after we decorate the hall,
My mom hung up surprise collages of my life and all.
Off to a slow start, but it did pick up quick,
Prizes went to those with the best costumes that I picked.
Rollerblades, flip cup and beer pong before we hit the bars,
Nobody's leaving til I sing my song, How Bizarre.
We don't stop dancing, we're all in a pack,
Jessica is here, and there's Brooke and Zach.
It meant so much to have my closest friends here,
Moments like my 25th, I will always hold dear.
Jen Hartman was beautiful, and we left the dance floor sweating.
The next weeks to come involved a lot of the Mississippi River,
I never imagined a few months later I'd be in it with the shivers.
Rode my friend's jet ski and watched some others play in the water,
I feared at the end of the day I'd find a human that was slaughtered.
Enjoyed Bluegrass music at the site of Mud Lake,
It's memories like these that I can't believe I get to make.
The following weekend, I returned a moving favor,
Reggie and Chelcy's house is awesome, and family time I did savor.
Later that night, our cab driver put on a light show,
Once at T-Layne's I heard, "This ain't my first karaoke, ho."
We danced the night away, at this point, out of habit,
We had an opportunity to hang with Phil; couldn't help but grab it.
Stayed an extra night in STL after a Sunday at Hammerstone's,
Saw a lot of my new Jap friend, Parker-- could've been his flesh and bones.
Winery weekend was an event not to be missed,
Megan Mullen in rare form hitting on Phil, Em wasn't even pissed.
Jessica showed up much to my surprise,
Asked me to be a bridesmaid, happy tears came to my eyes.
Another successful weekend, but ready for what was in store,
Lollapalooza in Chicago? There's nothing I want more!
Emily with two idiots riding the train to the city,
I show up at Spitz's apartment, the place pimpin' like Diddy.
Emily and Ash cherish every moment of Black Cards and Little J,
Catching up on meaningless discussions, always so much to say.
That night we try the fishbowl, we drink it fast with no apology,
Can't forget to check in at the 17th church of scientology.
The next day we wake to find a rainy, rainy day,
With Grace and Walk the Moon on the agenda, water will not get in our way.
Meet up with the guys, Ryan is a fist-pumping fool,
I break away to see Slim Shady cuz let's face it,I'm a tool.
My Morning Jacket with another stellar performance,
Much like Mr. Double Fist-pumper and all his endurance.
Spitz decides to break the rules and jump over the fence,
Searching high and low, his absence adds to our suspense.
We meet back up at the apartment, some are still wanting to have more fun,
But we knew our night was over when Ryan started chewing a wet one.
Sleep it all off for a bit the next day,
I head back on a scenic drive to the state that ends in "a."
I get my float trip fix with my girls Lindsay and Lisa,
Tubing along their canoe is a perfect way to please-ya.
Emily brought Phil for his first taste of this town,
Princess cups filled with mimosas, how quickly they went down.
Taking off hiking around the Mines of Spain,
Ashley running from snakes until she gets a sidepain.
Saw what we call a great band at Summer's Last Blast,
By the end of the night, Phil went missing, it happened so fast.
Picked him up in the ghetto, said he hated this place,
The next day he laughed and called those words a disgrace.
Labor Day weekend was as great as you can imagine,
Wineries, Picnic and BBQ- going on in true SFC-fashion.
I attend a Booze Cruise with my Rugby Loves the next week,
We are karaoke fools singing til we can't speak.
Let's just say my September was off to a great start,
The crazy thing is, we haven't even talked about the best part!
After crossfit on a Wednesday, I took off for Harrah's late at night,
Finally get to see Nicole after six month of only skype.
We are headed to San Francisco in the wee hours of the morning,
Her and Penny are about spend four nights with my snoring.
There is so much to do and people to see,
First, I went to the IBM Office to say hi to my old team.
Later that night, we went out and had a blast,
Nicole was at a jazz bar getting hit on by foreign ass.
Shopping and eating and sleeping here or there,
Just excited to be together in the California air.
Spend Saturday in Berkely with my sweet housemates of the prior year,
Every time I see them I start to cry and start to cheer.
Sunday is the day Nicole and Penny head North,
I spend it all with Jan and Dave, who I feel I've known since my birth.
These two are the greatest friends someone could ever have,
Jan takes me to the airport, I don't even need a cab!
Even though I'm exhausted and could really use some sleep,
There is no time-- to the next big event I must leap.
Starting to party and to celebrate my 25th,
80s and 90s-style, the whole weekend I could kiss!
First to arrive were Em, Phil, Will and Brad,
Playing catch phrase may have made us all a little mad.
Aubrey showed up holding a dog statue with eyes that sag,
I immediately turned into a crazy lady with some bags.
My momma appeared around ten that night,
I am the luckiest girl to have her in my life.
We left Diane in bed while we hit the Rainbow Lounge,
No idea we'd be hearing such a beautiful sound.
Brad and Aubrey sing amazing, we really gave them no choice,
But the Grammy goes to our strokin' lady, whom we call Joyce the Voice.
Run around the next morning getting ready for the party,
Maid Rite food made us wanna barf and probably a little farty.
Get ready in the hotel after we decorate the hall,
My mom hung up surprise collages of my life and all.
Off to a slow start, but it did pick up quick,
Prizes went to those with the best costumes that I picked.
Rollerblades, flip cup and beer pong before we hit the bars,
Nobody's leaving til I sing my song, How Bizarre.
We don't stop dancing, we're all in a pack,
Jessica is here, and there's Brooke and Zach.
It meant so much to have my closest friends here,
Moments like my 25th, I will always hold dear.
2011: The Year of the Road Warrior (Part I)
The year started out just like any other,
Talking bout lesbians being cousins while stumbling in gutters.
It was New Year's Eve and, with me, my two best girls,
Sparkly dresses intact and hair with big curls.
Hanging with old friends, happy to be back in the Midwest,
I had no idea 2011 would really be my best.
Back to Dubuque was the first trip among many,
If I ran as much as I drove this year, you can bet your ass I'd be skinny!
I officially began my new job on the 17th of Jan,
With new energy and duties, I really was a fan.
I stayed in Dubuque for the whole month long,
My Auntie Tata kept me company, always in song.
My next trip was on February's first real weekend,
Mizzou basketball was a success and then we went drinkin'.
Wild Jen and Kris were ready, and don't forget Jon,
Getting hit on by married guy infront of his wife was just wrong.
Nicole came back for one more visit before France,
At the hotel club, Lil Wayne wanted in her pants.
March brought the greatest party known to man,
Mardi Gras was in full force, making it past noon was our plan.
Venturing around, singing in microphones like a star,
I'll even pretend that guy didn't call me Roseanne Barr.
Ended our night at Taylana's like most smart folk do,
Even a rock through a window won't let our fun go to poo.
Something amazing happened toward the end of March,
The "Garden Club" was created and, boy, were we parched.
They weren't the only new friends that I would meet,
On the 26th that month, I was in for a treat.
Invited by my landlady to tailgate and attend a rugby game,
I had no idea that my life would never be the same.
It was so cold outside, but the social warmed me up a bit,
Began making friends and not til 6am did we quit.
That was the first of many times that we've owned the night this year,
These brothers share my love for dance parties, but not my brand of beer.
Not to play favorites or upset anyone who reads this,
But my new friends began to make Missouri life less-missed.
Went skiing with a co-worker at Dubuque's Sundown Mountain,
Didn't fall this much the first time so decided to hang out by a fountain.
Aubrey came for a visit like a true friend does,
Rainbow Lounge is an experience, you don't even need a buzz.
We treated ourselves to massages and got our nails done right,
Little did we know our night would be made by the Girls of Miller Lite.
Brooke and Zach were the next to visit me in the land of Corn,
We took lessons for snowboarding, I automatically wished I hadn't been born.
B and Z going down the hill with two feet by the end of the day,
I decide to take pictures instead, later I would play.
Went to a Comedy show with the GC ladies at the Diamond Jo,
Then had a blast for St. Pat's in Dyersville, wouldn't you know!
Experienced Galena for my first time ever,
Went on a ghost tour and got chills even while wearing a sweater.
Garden Club rocked it all year long,
With River cruises and progressive dinners, we really could do no wrong.
Took a trip to Davenport to see my old friend, Andy, play some ball,
Reminded me of all those times strategizing back at MAC that one fall.
Finally the BFF comes to see what the fuss is all about,
Trying to make sense of a life that is filled with questions and doubts.
Emily quickly becomes obsessed with a place called the Lift,
A bar full of hipsters is arguably her best gift.
Make up a new game guessing whose facebook status is being read,
Asking Jason Aldean to "get off mah feed" was the funniest that was said.
What came next was driving to the Lou and having a hoot,
At Sanctuaria, Emily would get a snake in her boot.
Worked from her living room that day while making a scrapbook,
Just to be left at an apartment at night with no ramen noodles to be cooked.
Float trips were skipped the weekend before memorial day,
We threw Mom a 50th surprise party even though she wasn't born in May.
Later that weekend we boated and sat by a bon fire,
Dreaming of the summer weeks to come, which was all that we desired.
Five days later was the beginning of the most amazing vacation week,
Country Days was legendary, my cousin Abbey's singing was the peak!
She won the talent show and opened up for country star, Mark Wills,
I can't believe I get to party while still making money for my bills!
Got our broom and dust pan taken away by the stadium gatekeep,
But she couldn't stop Pujols' walkoff from solidifying the sweep!
Taking pics with Superman and badgering cubbie fans,
The greatest was Reggie yelling, "You suck again!!"
The fun is not over, oh no, it's just begun.
Because in three short days, Shelly will start to run.
It's something not just anyone could endure,
It's not for the innocent and definitely not the pure.
A trip to Bonnaroo was the greatest of my life,
Even greater than the day when I become a wife.
But these stories have been told and a long time I took,
To carefully craft each moment in just a little book.
Emily came back to Iowa again, but this time brought along Ty,
Wrote my address on his arm in case things started to go awry.
Met Lindsay, Mike and Lola and started laughing off our asses,
All was fun and games until Em lost my sunglasses.
They would've been useful on the boat the week of July fourth,
But turned out not needed due to the rain from the North.
That was also the time I celebrated 26 years of my friend Jess,
Pedis and sushi were in order followed by a camo purse photo sesh.
Boating and River Parties and talking all night long,
Laughing at all the "partiers" who think they party harder with a bong.
You may think it's crazy, all the driving that's been done,
But how could I resist all these moments of great fun?!
Talking bout lesbians being cousins while stumbling in gutters.
It was New Year's Eve and, with me, my two best girls,
Sparkly dresses intact and hair with big curls.
Hanging with old friends, happy to be back in the Midwest,
I had no idea 2011 would really be my best.
Back to Dubuque was the first trip among many,
If I ran as much as I drove this year, you can bet your ass I'd be skinny!
I officially began my new job on the 17th of Jan,
With new energy and duties, I really was a fan.
I stayed in Dubuque for the whole month long,
My Auntie Tata kept me company, always in song.
My next trip was on February's first real weekend,
Mizzou basketball was a success and then we went drinkin'.
Wild Jen and Kris were ready, and don't forget Jon,
Getting hit on by married guy infront of his wife was just wrong.
Nicole came back for one more visit before France,
At the hotel club, Lil Wayne wanted in her pants.
March brought the greatest party known to man,
Mardi Gras was in full force, making it past noon was our plan.
Venturing around, singing in microphones like a star,
I'll even pretend that guy didn't call me Roseanne Barr.
Ended our night at Taylana's like most smart folk do,
Even a rock through a window won't let our fun go to poo.
Something amazing happened toward the end of March,
The "Garden Club" was created and, boy, were we parched.
They weren't the only new friends that I would meet,
On the 26th that month, I was in for a treat.
Invited by my landlady to tailgate and attend a rugby game,
I had no idea that my life would never be the same.
It was so cold outside, but the social warmed me up a bit,
Began making friends and not til 6am did we quit.
That was the first of many times that we've owned the night this year,
These brothers share my love for dance parties, but not my brand of beer.
Not to play favorites or upset anyone who reads this,
But my new friends began to make Missouri life less-missed.
Went skiing with a co-worker at Dubuque's Sundown Mountain,
Didn't fall this much the first time so decided to hang out by a fountain.
Aubrey came for a visit like a true friend does,
Rainbow Lounge is an experience, you don't even need a buzz.
We treated ourselves to massages and got our nails done right,
Little did we know our night would be made by the Girls of Miller Lite.
Brooke and Zach were the next to visit me in the land of Corn,
We took lessons for snowboarding, I automatically wished I hadn't been born.
B and Z going down the hill with two feet by the end of the day,
I decide to take pictures instead, later I would play.
Went to a Comedy show with the GC ladies at the Diamond Jo,
Then had a blast for St. Pat's in Dyersville, wouldn't you know!
Experienced Galena for my first time ever,
Went on a ghost tour and got chills even while wearing a sweater.
Garden Club rocked it all year long,
With River cruises and progressive dinners, we really could do no wrong.
Took a trip to Davenport to see my old friend, Andy, play some ball,
Reminded me of all those times strategizing back at MAC that one fall.
Finally the BFF comes to see what the fuss is all about,
Trying to make sense of a life that is filled with questions and doubts.
Emily quickly becomes obsessed with a place called the Lift,
A bar full of hipsters is arguably her best gift.
Make up a new game guessing whose facebook status is being read,
Asking Jason Aldean to "get off mah feed" was the funniest that was said.
What came next was driving to the Lou and having a hoot,
At Sanctuaria, Emily would get a snake in her boot.
Worked from her living room that day while making a scrapbook,
Just to be left at an apartment at night with no ramen noodles to be cooked.
Float trips were skipped the weekend before memorial day,
We threw Mom a 50th surprise party even though she wasn't born in May.
Later that weekend we boated and sat by a bon fire,
Dreaming of the summer weeks to come, which was all that we desired.
Five days later was the beginning of the most amazing vacation week,
Country Days was legendary, my cousin Abbey's singing was the peak!
She won the talent show and opened up for country star, Mark Wills,
I can't believe I get to party while still making money for my bills!
Got our broom and dust pan taken away by the stadium gatekeep,
But she couldn't stop Pujols' walkoff from solidifying the sweep!
Taking pics with Superman and badgering cubbie fans,
The greatest was Reggie yelling, "You suck again!!"
The fun is not over, oh no, it's just begun.
Because in three short days, Shelly will start to run.
It's something not just anyone could endure,
It's not for the innocent and definitely not the pure.
A trip to Bonnaroo was the greatest of my life,
Even greater than the day when I become a wife.
But these stories have been told and a long time I took,
To carefully craft each moment in just a little book.
Emily came back to Iowa again, but this time brought along Ty,
Wrote my address on his arm in case things started to go awry.
Met Lindsay, Mike and Lola and started laughing off our asses,
All was fun and games until Em lost my sunglasses.
They would've been useful on the boat the week of July fourth,
But turned out not needed due to the rain from the North.
That was also the time I celebrated 26 years of my friend Jess,
Pedis and sushi were in order followed by a camo purse photo sesh.
Boating and River Parties and talking all night long,
Laughing at all the "partiers" who think they party harder with a bong.
You may think it's crazy, all the driving that's been done,
But how could I resist all these moments of great fun?!
Monday, December 19, 2011
2012 Promises
2011 was easily the best year of my life. But I won't let it stop there... from here on out each year will be even better than the one before it. In order to make sure this happens, I have set some goals and am promising myself to achieve them. They will address many of the things I see as my biggest faults/areas of improvement, and cross off many items on my bucket list. By improving these areas, my health, confidence and overall quality of life are going to present so many more opportunities for a successful future.
I know many people believe "resolutions are meant to be broken," but once these words are published there is no turning back. I will accomplish all of these things. And so much more.
My Promises
1. Compete in the paleo challenge at my gym, Kettleburn Fitness... I will be doing a mixture of the paleo diet and the diet from the book, The Four Hour Body, which I did for two or so months(not necessarily very strictly) and lost close to twenty pounds earlier this year. I plan to follow it as strictly as possible for the 90 day challenge at my gym, and then maintain that healthy eating lifestyle afterwards. We are weighing, measuring and taking before and after pictures to track our progress. Will share with you after 90 days. :-)
2. Am taking a two-month break from drinking alcohol. Let's just say this has been a long time coming, and will just help me that much more with my weight loss/ being healthy goals. This will start after my New Year's trip in Chicago and go up until our family trip to Vegas for my cousin's Air Force Retirement Celebration in March.
3. In 2012, I will run over 600 miles.
4. I will run a half marathon all the way through without walking. I will run two total for the year.
5. I will buy a guitar and start to learn how to play. This has been on my list since I was in high school-- it's about time I did something about it.
6. To help with my healthy lifestyle and help me save more money, I will limit eating out to once a week.
7. No soda. Including Diet Mountain Dew, what I consider Jesus Juice.
8. I will volunteer with 5 different organizations. I've realized that good things really happen in life when you stop thinking about yourself, and start caring for others.
9. I will go skydiving.
10. I will start recycling again.
There you have it. The keys to my successful future-- 2011 has been amazing, but nothing has me more excited than the fast-approaching NEW YEAR.
xoxo,
Ash
I know many people believe "resolutions are meant to be broken," but once these words are published there is no turning back. I will accomplish all of these things. And so much more.
My Promises
1. Compete in the paleo challenge at my gym, Kettleburn Fitness... I will be doing a mixture of the paleo diet and the diet from the book, The Four Hour Body, which I did for two or so months(not necessarily very strictly) and lost close to twenty pounds earlier this year. I plan to follow it as strictly as possible for the 90 day challenge at my gym, and then maintain that healthy eating lifestyle afterwards. We are weighing, measuring and taking before and after pictures to track our progress. Will share with you after 90 days. :-)
2. Am taking a two-month break from drinking alcohol. Let's just say this has been a long time coming, and will just help me that much more with my weight loss/ being healthy goals. This will start after my New Year's trip in Chicago and go up until our family trip to Vegas for my cousin's Air Force Retirement Celebration in March.
3. In 2012, I will run over 600 miles.
4. I will run a half marathon all the way through without walking. I will run two total for the year.
5. I will buy a guitar and start to learn how to play. This has been on my list since I was in high school-- it's about time I did something about it.
6. To help with my healthy lifestyle and help me save more money, I will limit eating out to once a week.
7. No soda. Including Diet Mountain Dew, what I consider Jesus Juice.
8. I will volunteer with 5 different organizations. I've realized that good things really happen in life when you stop thinking about yourself, and start caring for others.
9. I will go skydiving.
10. I will start recycling again.
There you have it. The keys to my successful future-- 2011 has been amazing, but nothing has me more excited than the fast-approaching NEW YEAR.
xoxo,
Ash
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Book of Bonnaroo: The Highway to Love is Paved with Highfives
The day was Wednesday, the eighth of June,
It could be a needed-beginning or a day of doom.
We packed our shit and crammed it tight,
Shelly started right up without a fight.
I look to my left and see my pretty lady,
Worry appears with news that the gas pedal's acting a bit shady.
I'm not scared, it'll all work out--
Ty and B got it covered, there's really no doubt.
All of a sudden, an angel arrives,
He's 60, a hippie and not Mary Jane-deprived.
Together, they combined their powers as one,
By the time the Beamer left, our worrying was done.
Not once, but twice the prophet came around,
Maybe, just maybe we'll make it out of Farmtown.
We relieve ourselves at Jack N the Crack,
If Joe would come along, we'd be a five-man wolfpack.
After a new fuel pump, we think we've got it,
Til we run outta gas next to some old cottage.
A full tank of gas and air mattress later,
We're cruisin along as cool as AC Slater.
There's a jungle in my cup and I'm so sexcited,
With smiles on our faces, we'd be happy in riot.
Tyler's at the wheel and we're on a roll,
All is right with the world because we got our lucky troll.
Lost a door today and v-card long ago,
When the music comes on, you know we'll be gettin low.
Left our gas cap at the Missourah Line,
Went back and found her, oh so fine.
Em and Ash hittin' it hard with juice in their cup,
Looking to share love, there's a PEACE SIGN COMIN' UP!
Spillin, slippin, slidding from side to side,
Waiting to find a hitchhiker in need of a ride.
Headlights are blazing, cars are in lines,
Druggies are dealing, avoiding tickets and fines.
We decide to forgo that awful wait,
and head to Walmart where no one could predict our fate.
We filled our carts with food and beer,
buzzes wearing off from that everclear.
People have come around from every state,
From Pennsylvania and Iowa, even through a prison gate.
While most were nice, friendly and know how to kick,
It got a little scary when that guy cut off someone's dick.
Woke up early, shootin' the shit,
Carmen is ready, coconuts on her tit.
It's finally time to meet our match,
Bonnaroo's her name and boy what a catch.
Pass through RV check like it ain't no thang,
We'll be dancin' all day and night come shine or rain.
Who knew it could be so fun setting up shop'
With NPH overseeing us the partying is nonstop.
It was finally time to pop that roo cherry,
The Kopecky Family Band is so good it's scary.
Instruments galore and songs that make you pumped,
In 100 degree weather, my arms were goosebumped.
Our bodies so hot like we just climbed a mountain,
It was a no-brainer to jump in that mushroom fountain.
Next up is Freelance Whales after we freshen up a bit,
Tyler came along and on the sandy beach we did sit.
They had us pumpin our fist and singing out loud,
That guy's brother from Glee must be so proud.
Cheating on Bonnaroo, we hit the showers,
Relaxing in the RV as the minutes turn to hours.
Never have I ever with the neighbors next door,
All we got out of it is that Emily's a whore.
Drinkin' jungle juice like Tarzan and Jane,
Little did we know, we'd never see our drank again.
But after the spill, we were still jolly,
Even more so after meeting our new friend Molly.
Feelin' great and seeing more than shells,
Our faces were blown off by the sounds of Sleigh Bells.
Dancin, Dancin, Dancin, passing around glow sticks,
Braydon's up front takin some bad ass pics.
Wander on back so we can pop a squat,
Look for mystery vendors selling a cot.
No luck with the bed, but that didn't matter,
Ashley was out like a Chicago Cubs batter.
Emily still in her boots and pulling out all the stops,
Listenin to Roo Radio and takin some shots.
4am comes along and we wake up freezin,
It's all good, I fucking love Bonnaroo season.
Friday morn we rest for the night ahead.
We'll be lucky if we don't end up dead.
First stop is Cafe Where,
Sitting up front next to the speakers full-blare.
Daes Veil keeps it cool in the tent,
Lead Singer with a voice that must be heaven-sent.
You can feel sex in the air as Grace Potter takes the stage,
Captain America shows up and is ready to rage.
AJ and Ash in the middle of the crowd,
watching this feline dance makes my lady parts proud.
Face paint is on and we are ready to swoon,
My face has never melted as it did with WALK THE MOON.
Takin' it easy as we grab a bite to eat,
One gets worn out after hours of dancing on their feet.
Ashley heads to Florence and can't see a thing,
But she sounded just as she does recorded, damn she can sing.
Tyler takes Emily around on a wild goose chase,
All she's wanted all weekend is a freaking hammock in a case.
They wind up at Sonic Stage as groupies usually do,
Decide to stay to see Walk the Moon, Round Two.
We meet back up at Em-Em-Jay,
The night's not even begun and it's been a perfect day.
Back to Shelly to pop a squat and drink beer,
Finding glow sticks makes us start to cheer!
Watching Belly Dancers is a pleasant surprise,
There was even a man wearing a woman's disguise.
We end our shows with Fire, Angels and Wayne,
With so much energy on stage, Weezy's surely insane!
On our way back, Emily has an awkward encounter,
A girl is nearby and a guy's surely gonna mount her.
And of course Ashley's asleep inside within minutes,
Emily hangs with the neighbor Richard, or is it Dennis??
Tipsy and out of it, sleep deprived,
Dick asks Emily if she's okay to drive.
Better than Joe, she backs that truck ass up,
Instead of a sleeping bag, she finds herself curled up like a pup.
Tyler and B stroll in around six.
They've been out on Roo Town waving hundreds of glow sticks.
Ashley and Em awake in the morning,
All to find up above Tyler is snoring.
Braydon overheating when he was sleeping outside,
Later we use water bottles to shower in our ride.
Mumford and Sons is first on the agenda,
If the Lead Singer gets raped, I might be the offenda.
The boys check out Wiz with that Warren fellow,
Goin nuts in the crowd to the words of Black and Yellow.
We then head to the main stage where people is all you can see,
Everyone must really love themselves some Black Keys.
Meet up with Tyler under the arch,
Going to get a beverage, boy are we parched
Make a quick stop to Gay J's campsite,
We knew it was the beginning of a magical night.
Souls were filled with the Scissor Sisters,
Having so much fun that I couldn't feel my blisters.
Ash and Em wait 25 minutes just to use the John.
No telling what the boys were up to while they were gone.
Nothing could prepare us for the Girl Talk madness,
This kind of music could get rid of a widow's sadness.
Up on AJ's shoulders Tyler did go,
All he could see was people going crazy row after row.
One brave soul doing acrobatics in the rafter,
Then the guys went down the water slide and through the fountain after.
On the walk back we can't believe these are our lives,
The highway to love is paved with highfives.
I was feeling great, steady and stable,
And then I learned we were sleeping four to a table.
Somehow we made it through the night and no one died,
The next band played and Emily cried.
Tears in her eyes, she smiles at me with all that she's worth.
Quietly saying The Head and the Heart are not from this Earth.
I hang in the shade as we indulge in some Fences,
There's no doubt in my mind that hearing is the best of all senses.
Partyin' on like Wayne and Gartha,
We eat some burgers while in the background plays Aunt Martha.
Naps are taken under THIS TENT,
Cold War Kids could stay with me and not pay rent.
A little upset they didn't play what's yours is mine,
Get in a disagreement with Ty but all will be fine.
I come to my senses and say we're leaving in the morning at six,
We head back to Roo one last time post-giving Shelly's battery a fix.
One thing I may have failed to bring up,
Is that Tyler and Mike are now sporting amazing do-cuts.
With all intentions of partyin' like tomorrow will never come,
After minutes, you can stick a fork in us we're done.
Ty and Em in the hammock giving off the sleepy vibe,
Richard on the roof deeming us the Bonnaroo Tribe.
In the morning, we wish our new friends well,
We'll see them next year under the same Roo Spell.
Inside the sight is more than frightful,
but Shelly runs fine as long as u have a rope pull.
We first came for all different reasons--
Music, utopia, beer and stress-easin.
But we leave here with an understanding of one,
We'll meet again next year under the Bonnaroo Sun.
It could be a needed-beginning or a day of doom.
We packed our shit and crammed it tight,
Shelly started right up without a fight.
I look to my left and see my pretty lady,
Worry appears with news that the gas pedal's acting a bit shady.
I'm not scared, it'll all work out--
Ty and B got it covered, there's really no doubt.
All of a sudden, an angel arrives,
He's 60, a hippie and not Mary Jane-deprived.
Together, they combined their powers as one,
By the time the Beamer left, our worrying was done.
Not once, but twice the prophet came around,
Maybe, just maybe we'll make it out of Farmtown.
We relieve ourselves at Jack N the Crack,
If Joe would come along, we'd be a five-man wolfpack.
After a new fuel pump, we think we've got it,
Til we run outta gas next to some old cottage.
A full tank of gas and air mattress later,
We're cruisin along as cool as AC Slater.
There's a jungle in my cup and I'm so sexcited,
With smiles on our faces, we'd be happy in riot.
Tyler's at the wheel and we're on a roll,
All is right with the world because we got our lucky troll.
Lost a door today and v-card long ago,
When the music comes on, you know we'll be gettin low.
Left our gas cap at the Missourah Line,
Went back and found her, oh so fine.
Em and Ash hittin' it hard with juice in their cup,
Looking to share love, there's a PEACE SIGN COMIN' UP!
Spillin, slippin, slidding from side to side,
Waiting to find a hitchhiker in need of a ride.
Headlights are blazing, cars are in lines,
Druggies are dealing, avoiding tickets and fines.
We decide to forgo that awful wait,
and head to Walmart where no one could predict our fate.
We filled our carts with food and beer,
buzzes wearing off from that everclear.
People have come around from every state,
From Pennsylvania and Iowa, even through a prison gate.
While most were nice, friendly and know how to kick,
It got a little scary when that guy cut off someone's dick.
Woke up early, shootin' the shit,
Carmen is ready, coconuts on her tit.
It's finally time to meet our match,
Bonnaroo's her name and boy what a catch.
Pass through RV check like it ain't no thang,
We'll be dancin' all day and night come shine or rain.
Who knew it could be so fun setting up shop'
With NPH overseeing us the partying is nonstop.
It was finally time to pop that roo cherry,
The Kopecky Family Band is so good it's scary.
Instruments galore and songs that make you pumped,
In 100 degree weather, my arms were goosebumped.
Our bodies so hot like we just climbed a mountain,
It was a no-brainer to jump in that mushroom fountain.
Next up is Freelance Whales after we freshen up a bit,
Tyler came along and on the sandy beach we did sit.
They had us pumpin our fist and singing out loud,
That guy's brother from Glee must be so proud.
Cheating on Bonnaroo, we hit the showers,
Relaxing in the RV as the minutes turn to hours.
Never have I ever with the neighbors next door,
All we got out of it is that Emily's a whore.
Drinkin' jungle juice like Tarzan and Jane,
Little did we know, we'd never see our drank again.
But after the spill, we were still jolly,
Even more so after meeting our new friend Molly.
Feelin' great and seeing more than shells,
Our faces were blown off by the sounds of Sleigh Bells.
Dancin, Dancin, Dancin, passing around glow sticks,
Braydon's up front takin some bad ass pics.
Wander on back so we can pop a squat,
Look for mystery vendors selling a cot.
No luck with the bed, but that didn't matter,
Ashley was out like a Chicago Cubs batter.
Emily still in her boots and pulling out all the stops,
Listenin to Roo Radio and takin some shots.
4am comes along and we wake up freezin,
It's all good, I fucking love Bonnaroo season.
Friday morn we rest for the night ahead.
We'll be lucky if we don't end up dead.
First stop is Cafe Where,
Sitting up front next to the speakers full-blare.
Daes Veil keeps it cool in the tent,
Lead Singer with a voice that must be heaven-sent.
You can feel sex in the air as Grace Potter takes the stage,
Captain America shows up and is ready to rage.
AJ and Ash in the middle of the crowd,
watching this feline dance makes my lady parts proud.
Face paint is on and we are ready to swoon,
My face has never melted as it did with WALK THE MOON.
Takin' it easy as we grab a bite to eat,
One gets worn out after hours of dancing on their feet.
Ashley heads to Florence and can't see a thing,
But she sounded just as she does recorded, damn she can sing.
Tyler takes Emily around on a wild goose chase,
All she's wanted all weekend is a freaking hammock in a case.
They wind up at Sonic Stage as groupies usually do,
Decide to stay to see Walk the Moon, Round Two.
We meet back up at Em-Em-Jay,
The night's not even begun and it's been a perfect day.
Back to Shelly to pop a squat and drink beer,
Finding glow sticks makes us start to cheer!
Watching Belly Dancers is a pleasant surprise,
There was even a man wearing a woman's disguise.
We end our shows with Fire, Angels and Wayne,
With so much energy on stage, Weezy's surely insane!
On our way back, Emily has an awkward encounter,
A girl is nearby and a guy's surely gonna mount her.
And of course Ashley's asleep inside within minutes,
Emily hangs with the neighbor Richard, or is it Dennis??
Tipsy and out of it, sleep deprived,
Dick asks Emily if she's okay to drive.
Better than Joe, she backs that truck ass up,
Instead of a sleeping bag, she finds herself curled up like a pup.
Tyler and B stroll in around six.
They've been out on Roo Town waving hundreds of glow sticks.
Ashley and Em awake in the morning,
All to find up above Tyler is snoring.
Braydon overheating when he was sleeping outside,
Later we use water bottles to shower in our ride.
Mumford and Sons is first on the agenda,
If the Lead Singer gets raped, I might be the offenda.
The boys check out Wiz with that Warren fellow,
Goin nuts in the crowd to the words of Black and Yellow.
We then head to the main stage where people is all you can see,
Everyone must really love themselves some Black Keys.
Meet up with Tyler under the arch,
Going to get a beverage, boy are we parched
Make a quick stop to Gay J's campsite,
We knew it was the beginning of a magical night.
Souls were filled with the Scissor Sisters,
Having so much fun that I couldn't feel my blisters.
Ash and Em wait 25 minutes just to use the John.
No telling what the boys were up to while they were gone.
Nothing could prepare us for the Girl Talk madness,
This kind of music could get rid of a widow's sadness.
Up on AJ's shoulders Tyler did go,
All he could see was people going crazy row after row.
One brave soul doing acrobatics in the rafter,
Then the guys went down the water slide and through the fountain after.
On the walk back we can't believe these are our lives,
The highway to love is paved with highfives.
I was feeling great, steady and stable,
And then I learned we were sleeping four to a table.
Somehow we made it through the night and no one died,
The next band played and Emily cried.
Tears in her eyes, she smiles at me with all that she's worth.
Quietly saying The Head and the Heart are not from this Earth.
I hang in the shade as we indulge in some Fences,
There's no doubt in my mind that hearing is the best of all senses.
Partyin' on like Wayne and Gartha,
We eat some burgers while in the background plays Aunt Martha.
Naps are taken under THIS TENT,
Cold War Kids could stay with me and not pay rent.
A little upset they didn't play what's yours is mine,
Get in a disagreement with Ty but all will be fine.
I come to my senses and say we're leaving in the morning at six,
We head back to Roo one last time post-giving Shelly's battery a fix.
One thing I may have failed to bring up,
Is that Tyler and Mike are now sporting amazing do-cuts.
With all intentions of partyin' like tomorrow will never come,
After minutes, you can stick a fork in us we're done.
Ty and Em in the hammock giving off the sleepy vibe,
Richard on the roof deeming us the Bonnaroo Tribe.
In the morning, we wish our new friends well,
We'll see them next year under the same Roo Spell.
Inside the sight is more than frightful,
but Shelly runs fine as long as u have a rope pull.
We first came for all different reasons--
Music, utopia, beer and stress-easin.
But we leave here with an understanding of one,
We'll meet again next year under the Bonnaroo Sun.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Unspoken
Sometimes I beg when I should give,
I've been known to hide when I should live.
I wander around in a cold, dark place,
All while wishing you'd give me anything but this space.
I don't do good with quiet and distance,
Or your dodging glances and donning resistance.
Just when I decide to throw it all out,
You show me a smile and wash away my doubt.
At this rate, I'll burst before I know,
Because without you, I'm just winter with no snow.
My dreams are consumed by all that is unspoken,
I fear all that remains is my heart that is broken.
But right before the dawn opens my eyes,
That look on your face makes my hope start to rise.
So now here's the question, the one of my life,
Is it me that is guilty of turning the knife?
Did I make it all up? Is it real or not?
Two more weeks of this shit, my heart just might stop.
I'm asking you once, not counting the hundreds of times in my head,
Will you give us a chance when we're outside of your bed?
I've been known to hide when I should live.
I wander around in a cold, dark place,
All while wishing you'd give me anything but this space.
I don't do good with quiet and distance,
Or your dodging glances and donning resistance.
Just when I decide to throw it all out,
You show me a smile and wash away my doubt.
At this rate, I'll burst before I know,
Because without you, I'm just winter with no snow.
My dreams are consumed by all that is unspoken,
I fear all that remains is my heart that is broken.
But right before the dawn opens my eyes,
That look on your face makes my hope start to rise.
So now here's the question, the one of my life,
Is it me that is guilty of turning the knife?
Did I make it all up? Is it real or not?
Two more weeks of this shit, my heart just might stop.
I'm asking you once, not counting the hundreds of times in my head,
Will you give us a chance when we're outside of your bed?
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